The past couple of days I have been searching my feelings and I’ve realized a couple of things that surprise me. They are (1) that right now I don’t have any desire to do anything in my life but serve this mission to Poland and (2) that given the chance to change my assignment to something else (like serve in an office), I would choose to serve in a Polish branch (which is our current assignment).
(1) I find this interesting because my nature is to have lots of projects and be mentally working on all of them. The fact that I don’t have any other projects but this mission and that I have no desire to think about any other project (other than the mission) is unique to me in my life. My theory is that this mission is a big deal in my life and that I’m focusing on it exclusively.
(2) If I could change my assignment I would continue to serve as Member and Leadership Support (MLS). That surprises me because I love serving in mission offices. Sharon and I know how to do it. It is in our comfort zone. Serving in a Polish branch is not in our comfort zone because of two heightened areas: Speaking Polish and Being Lead by the Spirit. Of course we are working on both those areas but we will not be fluent in either in the near future. In spite of this deficiencies I still would choose to be a MLS missionary. Why? I think I like being in the thick of the battle and, to me, the battle is found where MLS missionaries are found.